The best and worst month

October is rapidly approaching, fortunately and unfortunately. I start my first month of wards in October, which means I'll be working in the hospital, 80+ hours a week, sometimes 30 hours at a time. Actually, my first day of work I'm on call, so I will get there super early in the morning and work all day and night, then get home around 1pm the next day. I went back to work after a few weeks postpartum, but that was to an elective which was pretty easy hours. The start of October is going to feel more like returning to work and I'm worried about the fatigue, keeping up pumping, and mostly, being away from my baby that long. I would appreciate your prayers for this tough transition!

October is my favorite month, though! I love fall and it's my birthday month and Wes'. The weather is great, the leaves are changing, and fall clothes are the bomb. I went shopping the other day to get said fall clothes because I'm still carrying about 10 pesky extra pounds and I just can't keep wearing my maternity pants. They are saggy in the behind and the belly part won't stay up! I'm one size up from my original.

I went to Haywood, alone, and went to town. I was seriously sweating, running around because it was 3pm on a Sunday, and the mall closed at 6. I decided on the way there what I would need and made a plan. Basics. Something I can wear to work/church/meetings at the same time. I also made a plan for shoes bc the feet are still too big. My friend Laura recommended croc flats-- comfortable, cheap, and acceptable in the hospital setting as normal shoes. AND they come in 11! Belk was having a huge sale and I took so many clothes to the dressing room that I couldn't see above them.

I wanted to embrace my new body and stop putting myself down about it. I have a beautiful 8 week old and if that means carrying extra weight, its worth it you know? The new me is a lot curvier and my stomach is still flabby. But I found some sheath dresses that are good, and best of all, JEGGINGS. They look like skinny jeans but they are flattering (I think).

So, I'm ready, but not ready at the same time, to start wards. At least I will look the part!

To update you- the domperidone did help! We are still trucking along.